04:45

Ruth Deutschmann

Kufstein

1999-03-26

Sylvia Manning - Baumgartner

Nicolse D ´Incecco

1931

I grew up in the crowd. First, in the mass of youth, then in the mass of workers. I have many functions, top features have offered and they have successfully completed. And I had to tell me again and again: "I have to be an example, be in all respects an example, even in my private life." So I was not allowed to fly from one girl to another. They would say: "Look at you, Mandler, what's that Hallodri." No, I had to be as crucial in my personal work in my profession, in society and especially naturally in the party and its mass organizations, in which I was represented as an official somewhere. But then it was just once but so - I do not know - it all happened so unexpectedly. It's hard to talk about it for me. Here's why - I was in love with my mother. I was always on her side against my own father. My two sisters have always pressed for any housework. can I have helped my mom, I've dusted and floors vacuumed and swept, and always looked to see if my mom probably can finally sit down again and a little freak. And I have cursed my sisters, but have just laughed at me. And then my mother died. And since then - accompanied me to the suicide idea. I thought I can not live without my mother. And I'm for months with live ammunition, gun running around in your pocket - in a time where I just had to do with the railroad important tests. I was then railway workers. - Well. I have my life savings - amounting to more than 1000 crowns - used up to create my mom a really nice grave monument. And before my mother died, I've been with her every day in the hospital - I was with her in the hospital and see there a girl that I was actually unknown. And my thoughts were only with my mother. We knew that our mother die, she is much too late - she's only been mishandled by a doctor and came too late to the hospital. She died of galloping tuberculosis.